“Hey Celes, I recently broke up with my boyfriend and came across your blog. You inspire me a lot and I feel that my moving on process is getting easier with the reading of your blog. Anyways, my boyfriend broke up with me because he felt that I didn’t enjoy the physical intimacy (like kissing, hugging or even more) and he didn’t feel appreciated, and was no longer motivated in seeing me due to my behaviour.
“Truth is, I’m not so much of a physical person… and it hurts me because I thought we could connect emotionally and support each other through hard times, only to know that he didn’t see me in the same way. He told me that although emotional support is important, he felt that a relationship wouldn’t go long without physical intimacy and he complained the lack of spark between us. I realized that he is in his early 20s so this (physical intimacy) probably matters to him… but this also made me realize that he didn’t truly love me (and that kinda hurts as well).
“Knowing that you were single for a long time before Ken, may I ask how you dealt with these kind of stuff? Did any of these issues bother you and Ken? Thank you!” ~ Madaline
Dearest Madaline, I’m so sorry to hear about your breakup. *hugs* I hope that you have been healing well (I notice that your letter was sent 4 months ago) and that you have already read my moving on series, where I share tips on moving on from a relationship.
So first off, to all ladies (even men), you should never, ever feel pressurized into physical intimacy with your boyfriend/partner. It doesn’t matter how much he wants it, how much he tries to convince you, or how strongly he feels about it. If your boyfriend wants to be physically intimate but you don’t, it’s a no. Even if he threatens to break up, it’s still a no. If anything, him threatening or changing his tone/interest after you deny him intimacy is probably a red flag sign of his priorities and real interest in you. Physical intimacy should come out of your own desire and interest to be intimate with your partner, not out of pressure from him.
Madaline, you didn’t share specifics about the “lack of spark” that your ex-boyfriend had mentioned, so I’m going to make some assumptions here. Did he want more physical intimacy but he didn’t get that? Did he want sexual intimacy (or more of it) but he didn’t get it? Or did he get physical intimacy, both in terms of the kind of intimacy and the frequency, but he felt a lack of chemistry during these times? Either way, let me address them accordingly.
I regard the development of every relationship to fall under these 4 aspects: Mind, Body, Heart, and Soul. Mind is intellectual, mental compatibility; the ability to share ideas, talk about them. Heart is emotional compatibility; the ability to open up and be vulnerable, to have shared emotions and to empathize easily with each other. Soul is spiritual compatibility, which I think is not very relevant for the purpose of this article and is also somewhat abstract, so I’m not going to go into this here. Body refers to physical compatibility, which includes physical attraction to your partner and sexual compatibility. By physical attraction, I don’t mean “love at first sight” because contrary to popular opinion, physical attraction can grow over time as you know someone, even if you didn’t find the person attractive initially. I wrote about this before here: Are Looks Important in a Marriage Decision?
For any romantic connection to progress, it needs to have compatibility in at least one big area. Mind, Body, Heart, Soul — any one area. If there is emotional compatibility, it creates a stable base for compatibility to be built in the other areas: mind, body, and/or soul. Same if there is existing mental compatibility; it allows for compatibility to be built in the areas of body, heart, and/or soul. Same for physical compatibility. Note that here, I’m referring to the potential for a romantic connection to progress, not criteria for marriage which is obviously a different thing altogether.
So take for example, someone is a strong intellectual fit with you (mental compatibility) but he is a complete ass. On the other hand, you want a sensitive partner who cares about your feelings. Clearly there is no emotional compatibility here. But perhaps he is quite a nice person at heart and behind his blunt words are good intentions. Maybe he is not aware of his bluntness, which I find common among many harsh people, and if given the chance, he wants to express himself in a more sensitive way. Here, there is potential for him to be emotionally compatible with you. Even if there is no emotional compatibility now, it doesn’t mean that there won’t be in the future. So it’s certainly not the end of this connection, and it’s about nurturing it to see how it can grow.
But what if there is both emotional and mental compatibility, but no physical compatibility? What should you do?
A few things to note here:
- It depends on how important physical compatibility is to you.
- It depends on your immediate “expectations” for this relationship, whether you’re looking at it short term or long term.
- You have to consider that everyone has the ability to develop themselves, so what’s more important is the person’s desire to grow and his/her interest in this area. Just because someone isn’t physically compatible with you now doesn’t mean he/she won’t be forever.
So this is where it gets subjective. There are people to whom physical intimacy is very, very important. They need physical intimacy, they look for regular sex whether they’re in a relationship or not, they connect with their partners using sex as their language of love and perhaps as a form of release, and they don’t have any notion for or against premarital sex. So for these folks, ONS’s (one-night stands) and flings may be a norm, and they see sexual intimacy early on in a relationship as normal and necessary. If you are someone who doesn’t care too much about physical intimacy and sex isn’t your primary language of love, and you are with someone who prioritizes sexual intimacy above all things, then this connection is probably not going to work for long (unless one or both of you change in this area).
But then there are people to whom physical intimacy is important, but emotional/mental compatibility is even more important. To them, sex/ physical intimacy is just one component of the relationship, so they focus on looking for a partner with whom they can connect emotionally/mentally first, before looking at other areas. For such people, they select their partners based on their emotional and mental connection first and then let their physical closeness with each other build up naturally, rather than filtering people based on physical intimacy.
So an example is a friend who was with her boyfriend for 3 years before they got married. During their courtship they weren’t sexually intimate, though her boyfriend was previously sexually involved with his exes. They were, however, physically intimate (kissing, hugging, cuddling, etc.), like with most modern couples. They are now married for several years with a kid, and their relationship is one of the healthiest among the people I know. Of course there is no way for me to know the specifics of a relationship as an outsider (such as whether there is any issue behind closed doors), but it does seem that way based on my intuition and what I see.
For myself, my primary language of love is not physical touch; it’s communication and words. I like to speak to connect with my partner, to know how he is doing, and to know him on a deeper level. On the other hand, Ken had many relationships in the past and he was pretty much sexually involved with all his past partners, including a variety of flings and ONS’s. But this disparity didn’t stop us from connecting deeply. For me, when I asked him what he thought about deferring sex (early on in our relationship), he said he didn’t care because the connection between us is stronger than what he had ever felt before. The whole notion of sex early on in the relationship, later, after marriage, or even never (and this I quote him) for whatever bizarre biological reason was a mere triviality to him. In a different relationship he might have been concerned because there’s always an issue of sexual incompatibility between partners, but for some reason this concern simply didn’t come up for him with us. He said the whole thought of sex or no sex just paled in comparison to the connection we have; it was not even a factor of consideration for him.
Now I’m not trying to say that sexual intimacy isn’t important or that physical compatibility is not something we should look at, because it’s not true. I do think that sexual/physical intimacy is important, and it is part and parcel of a successful relationship. But I also genuinely think that sexual/physical intimacy, for the most part and for most couples, arises naturally out of a strong emotional and mental compatibility. In the many cases I’ve looked at, couples who are supposedly dealing with an issue with a lack of physical spark or physical incompatibility are always invariably dealing with emotional/mental compatibility issues of some kind. Even though they may think that they are dealing with a unique issue in sexual/physical incompatibility or mismatch in sex drives, there are usually underlying factors that are tied to an incompatibility in other areas. For example, I once knew someone divorced his wife because they didn’t have sex at all in their entire marriage of 3-4 years. While it looked like an issue of physical incompatibility, when I dug deeper, it turned out that there was never a real emotional or intellectual connection to begin with, leading to the sexual emptiness in the marriage.
It is also important to note that sometimes there may be changes in our lives (such as work stress, down periods in life, etc.) that create intimacy issues with our partners, but that again is linked to emotional and life factors rather than real physical mismatches.
Which brings me to this point: Madaline, deep down, I suspect that the “lack of physical spark” is probably not the real reason for the breakup. And I suspect that you probably think the same way too. I believe there was probably a missing compatibility in some other area (emotional, shared visions, shared values, aspirations, whichever it is) that caused physical spark to both become an issue and the issue, following which it became the cause for the breakup.
Now this actually isn’t a bad thing, Madaline. Rather I think it’s a good thing that both of you broke up, because whether it was due to reason X or Y, the point is that there was some form of incompatibility that caused “physical spark” to be an issue. So say if you were to change yourself hugely to fill the gap in “physical spark” due to your ex’s complaints, not only would you become a different person from your natural self, but you would also find yourself having to change more things to keep the relationship afloat, to fill up other areas of incompatibility. Or let’s say your ex was truly looking for a lot of physical intimacy and it was the sole and only issue. Then the relationship simply wouldn’t work because that’s not how you naturally are or at least that’s not how you feel when around him (and there’s nothing wrong with this).
How then, you ask, should we deal with situations where there’s really a lack of physical spark, but there’s a strong emotional/mental connection? Like I said, I think most couples dealing with a lack of physical spark or physical incompatibility are really dealing with issues with other kinds of compatibility. There are exceptions where the gap in physical compatibility is really due to non-relationship factors (such as a real biological mismatch or one’s deep-set fear toward physical intimacy), but those are the exceptions. Meaning if someone feels a lack of physical spark with their partner, I’d advise to look at the relationship fundamentals first vs. focusing on the physical component which is usually the effect.
But say you feel emotionally and mentally compatible with someone, and you’re fearful about being physically incompatible with him/her. What should you do?
Firstly, I’d think of physical intimacy as a spectrum, not a binary “yes it’s there, no it’s not there” kind of thing. Meaning, I wouldn’t worry about having instant physical chemistry with a relationship partner from that first act of intimacy (kissing, cuddling, etc.), but about building this chemistry over time.
Secondly, I’d think of physical intimacy as having many stages. Kissing, hugging, cuddling, french kissing, petting, and so on. Even within each stage there are various degrees of progression. Depending on one’s comfort with physical closeness, some of these stages may only be done after marriage or later on in the relationship. Either way, you can already work on building chemistry within your range of comfort. For example, maybe you had a weird first kiss with your partner. Slobbery, wet, weird. But adopt a fun-loving, experimental mindset toward it and allow yourself to keep trying. After a few tries, and as both of you get familiar with each other’s lips and kissing styles, kissing starts to feel normal between the both of you, and it starts to become something that you look forward to! Same for hugging, cuddling, french kissing, and any other physical activity.
Thirdly, let’s say there is zero connection when you kiss, hug, and even when you see your partner (like you don’t feel excited/happy at all when you see him/her). AND, you still don’t feel any connection after many weeks and months of being together. THEN yes, there may be a problem, and this is something you should talk about with your partner, to let him/her know how you feel, that there’s this issue, to understand the blockage, and so on.
In short, I wouldn’t worry too much about achieving an instant physical spark with someone or having no spark with future romantic prospects, unless you have some deeply rooted issues with intimacy (which I don’t think is the case for you, and which would be a separate thing altogether). Physical chemistry and compatibility is something that you build with your partner, through open communication, understanding each other’s likes and dislikes, and an openness to explore new things. Like I mentioned above, everyone has the ability to grow and develop, and one’s physical preference and inclination doesn’t stay fixed forever. Also, when you love someone and you’re emotionally connected, you will naturally want to be close with him/her vs. having to force yourself to kiss/ be intimate with him/her. It’s your role, as much as it’s your partner’s role, to build on your physical chemistry together vs. it being something that magically happens.
Interestingly, by looking at physical intimacy as something that grows organically and adopting an open and fun-loving mindset toward it, it puts less pressure on you and helps you focus on building your connection with your partner, which then provides the foundation on which strong physical intimacy is built on. 🙂
Sending lots of hugs and love your way Madaline, and let me know how everything goes in your love life! 🙂 ♥