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(01-31-2012 02:35 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  Oooh!!Ooh, for those who like anime, here's one filled with wisdom, go-green messages and more than just a touch of fantasy!! :D
http://www.watchanimeon.com/arjuna-episode-1/

A friend of mine recommended it a while ago. I watched a few episodes but anime isn't really my thing :)

Love your journalling posts. So many realisations! :D

BTW what's that self-discovery map? :o

"The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable."
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02-02-2012 05:42 PM
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Self-discovery map?? Did I mention that in my journal??
Well, if I did I think I was talking about using questions as a means to self-discovery that can help me understand myself and sort of map out how things are in my head.
For example one of the purposes of this challenge for me is to figure out what my goals(treasure) should be and also the steps I should take to achieve it(path to the treasure) and identify any roadblocks I might encounter!!!

I hope that explains things ..... :P

Btw, the problem may not lie with the fact that it is anime. Lots of people find this one rather slow paced and maybe a little weird in terms of plot n visualization
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Look at my babies!! Gave one of them a hair cut!!
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also the grass was grinded and filtered for only the juice. Mom put some tomatoes and white pumpkin. Quite refreshin. I think it would have tasted better with some lime in it too
Rofl!! Oh wow... I just realized I had written that self-discovery map thingy on my status!! Silly me!

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Reporting Day 11:
Well, today was pretty much havoc. I didn't exercise or pack my 6 meals for the day and my meditation session was pretty much lousy. I did drink plenty of wheatgrass juice though... I hope I didn't overdo it :P. That said, I still loved my day... :)

Analysis:
The previous challenge is meant to help you see who are the people who actually bring out the best in us. But I realize this has enabled me to see much more. I now know that I can work on existing not-so-great relationships by having us engage in something we're both interested in. So basically what I'm trying to say is, this has helped me to not only recognise the people who bring out the best in me(Nimz, you are one of them...Thank you!) but also helped me to realize how I can bring out the best in my relationships with say...., my parents! :D

Q11-"Out of Your 5 Senses, Which is the Most Important to You, and Why?"

This is way too tough!! How can I limit my answer to just ONE of the 5 senses!?! Impossible!! So what I'm gonna do is list them out in order, the first being the one I'll miss the most and the last, the one I'll miss the least. The reason for this is because I'm too attached/dependant/in love with all of my senses. So here is the list->
1) Sight
2) Touch
3) Hearing
4) Smell
5) Taste
The sense of taste is least important to me. Of course I love delicious food, in fact people often comment that they have never seen someone enjoy it so much. But the truth is I am not fussy and it is not important that I indulge my taste buds. The sense of smell is something I really appreciate especially when its first rain and the smell of wet-mud comes to me. I also have a thing for guys with nice woodsy cologne. Next, I have to say that I love music too much to part with my ability to hear.
Now, about the sense of touch and sight, I actually wanted to put both of them together because they both seemed so infinitely important. Without the sense of touch, there is a good many things that fade to grey like heartfelt hugs, lover's intimacy etc.... A touch communicates so many things from assurance to love. On the other hand, sight is something I rely on too much. The most important thing that sight
allows me is to look into the other person's eyes. For me this is essential because a person's eyes are windows to his/her soul. I need to be able to connect to a person's soul(see them for who they are) this way. So you see the reason for my confusion. But then I realised that even if I were unable to receive communication through touch, I'd still be able to give to some extent. So this way, the sense of sight got first place!! Although I really do think I might change my mind about this every time I ask myself this question in the future.


The end!!! :D

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Hah, it was quite fun to discover I agree with you in the importance of your five senses. It is natural that at different stages of your life you will change your mind on which ones takes the prize, or what order you choose, but then again, we're blessed to have all of them, and being able to enjoy them as well.

Looks like I'll start checking your journal fairly often now!
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Hey Jerry!
Well, that's cool! Looks like I've got another journal buddy! :happy:
Are you keeping a journal here in PE??

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Reporting Day-12:

AWESOME!! A total failure in terms of sticking to my new found habits but still it was a wonderful day. I graduated from my training at work. We had a little party and I had to work my butt off to get things done. It was chaotic but I loved it. I'm really really really sleepy, so I'll make this entry short... :)


Analysis:

Looks like I'm more of a visual/sensorial person. Nice. I'm getting to know me better and better. I also came to know that I am more attached to people and more involved with communication than I had initially realized. I used to think that just because I was one of the quiet introverts, communication was not my forte and I was not a people-person.


Q-12 "What Are Your Biggest Goals for the Next Few Years?"

Actually, the reason I took this challenge was so that I could be able to answer this question later on. But yea, I guess I'm ready now. In the next few years, I'd like to
* have my student loan paid off
* have my meditation centre up and running
* get started with the orphanage
* get a blog running as well
* improve on physicality
* keep making progress with the personality development
They are more like vague visions right now. By the end of this challenge, I'll review my entries and formulate proper goals and plans...


Phew! Finally, I get to sleep!!
zzzzzzzzzzz....................zzzzzz...........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

02-04-2012 09:20 AM
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(02-04-2012 09:20 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  I also came to know that I am more attached to people and more involved with communication than I had initially realized. I used to think that just because I was one of the quiet introverts, communication was not my forte and I was not a people-person.
Wait, what, YOU and quiet introvert? I wouldn't believe it if I hadn't made a similar transformation myself. Except I'm still quiet in most RL situations unless it's a small group, close friends, a topic I have lots to say about or people yet quieter than me.

"The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable."
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Hey Melarish! (finally got to know your name)
Yea..., the change took a while but I find quite a lot of people very surprised to find that there was a time I was quiet!! I'm the one who has the most trouble getting used to this. I'm pretty much still stuck identifying with old labels. Its like I changed the motor of my vehicle but I still think I'm working with the old one and I forget what my vehicle can actually do now. I bet you know what I'm talking about!! ;)
YAY for your transformation!! I have my quiet times too.... :D

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Reporting Day-13:

Its a Saturday!! You all probably already know how much I like Saturdays. Unfortunately, this monday I'll be working in a different shift where the my offs are gonna be on wednesdays and thursdays and my hours will be from 8.30pm to 5.30am..... Anyway, forget that, today was brilliant!! I did my exercise finally. I did lots of house-chores as well and I cooked too-potato pancakes!! Although I don't think I'll cook that again. I somehow did not find it particularly satisfying to eat. I'm planning on doing my meditation just before I sleep just as an experiment with lucid dreaming. :happy:

Analysis:

Well, all I can say looking back on yesterday's answer is that I'm quite happy I'm not as clueless as I initially was. Now all I have to do is make them reality..... :rofl: I love how I downplay things!!! Makes it seem so easy!!! :P

Q-13 "What Do You Fear Most?"

Buah-hahahaha HAA! Damn! I kinda like this question. I like it cause it reminds me of my old buddy Fear!! He is like an overprotective-mommy character who, quite frankly, gets more than just annoying sometimes. I tell you, he knows exactly what strings to pull. Me and him....., we've been battling it out since I can remember. I confess he has scored more wins than I have but in my defense I have almost always fought back. I'm proud of myself for that. I wonder if we will ever part ways for good but I don't particularly mind. He gives me the work-out I need to make me stronger!!
Enough of the fancy-talk though, here is a list of things I'm afraid of and why I'm afraid of them and how it limits me.
I'm afraid of...
1) being judged and found to be lacking in some way.
-why? Cause I'm not already confident of my self-worth and importance
-what this does..... is hamper me when I'm speaking in public/taking the lead/going out on dates/hanging out with new people/starting something new and different

2) failure
-why? Cause I'm too in love with perfection and the understanding of possibility of failure shakes me up
-what this does..... is prevent me from getting the opportunity to learn from my failures and also minimizes those wonderful opportunities for change and transformation.

3) loss
-why? Cause I remember too well that did does not feel good to loose something or someone.
-what this does......is prevent me form getting anything more cuz I either try to hoard/cling to what I want(so there is no room for more/better to come) or not make an effort to acquire or even care so the loss will not hurt.

4) getting hurt
-why? Cause I don't like it?!? :P
-what this does....... is hold me back from relationships/winning/self-improvement/getting a little tough.

5)lizards
-why? Cause I find them disgusting
-what this does........is make me look like a fool when I scream for help while the lizard runs away (afraid of me!!)

The first four fears affect a huge part of my life. They are all greatly diminished thanks to my battles with Fear in the past. But I guess a few more battles are in order. I have a feeling the next 3-4 years will be the most challenging.
The last fear is the only one that I haven't fought against. I don't really want to... UGH! Those slimy icky things..... :P Maybe one day....some day......

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Reporting Day-14:
Can't believe it! 2 weeks gone already. Today was fantabulous! I got to see my friends, do some chores, exercise. My meal plan was ruined but I still ate healthy. Went to this awesome place called "Urban Solace" and ate tuna salad which was YUM! My posture was awesome all day!! I also told my friends about this challenge I'm doing and they are interested!! Hopefully, I'll see them around in these forums soon. :)

Analysis:
I have to say, I'm getting pretty good at beating fear. In fact, just a few hours back someone described me as "bold"! This sent me flying up in the clouds!! I've always seen myself as timid and fear kept my confidence beaten down. People used to say to me, "Try and be more confident". But I guess my battles have paid off! I've gotten a new label now! "Bold"!!! HAHAHAHA!!! :happy:

Q-14 "What is Love?":
That is quite a big question for a little girl like me. I thought about it all day and finding my answer was difficult. If Fear is my old sparring buddy, Love is my silent unnoticed friend. She came as close as I would let her, never objecting, always present.... I admit, I gave Fear and Anger more attention than I gave her. But she patiently waited her turn when I realized just how brilliant she shone for me....
I think Love is the most misunderstood emotion; the most powerful yet it is very possible for it to go unnoticed, unappreciated. One can be surrounded by Love and be oblivious to it, demanding it be given to them. Love is only Love when it is given but its never forced, the other still has to reach out and receive.
I also learnt that love is not blind, people are; love is not confusing, we just think it is; love is not difficult to "generate", people love every day, in every way, without even knowing it; love does not trigger jealousy, our personality helps us there; love is not "slow poison", our manner of thinking is; love does not hurt, disappointments and loss does.
Learning what love's not, was easy. You only had to look at the many sad souls around you and your own mistakes. Understanding what Love is...., now that took a while. First my false perceptions had to fade, then I had to open myself up to re-learn! I learnt love is healing, love is nurturing, giving, sharing, caring, accepting, protecting, soothing......
I find giving love easier than receiving. But I'm working on it and I'm almost there. :) Also, I don't know about being "in love" and "falling in love" and "love at first sight". I have yet to explore and learn about the more intimate side to love. Here's to hoping I get to sit through those classes soon!! ;)

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You certainly are bold! Congratulations on coming to terms with your new label. That is very amazing. I think that as you become more in tune with yourself it becomes impossible to be timid and shy. As long as your are comfortable with yourself, you will keep making moves in happier directions and anyone who does that cannot possibly be timid!

Keep up the good work.

Moira

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(02-06-2012 03:15 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  I also learnt that love is not blind, people are; love is not confusing, we just think it is; love is not difficult to "generate", people love every day, in every way, without even knowing it; love does not trigger jealousy, our personality helps us there; love is not "slow poison", our manner of thinking is; love does not hurt, disappointments and loss does.

SEJ!!
Been a while since i dropped by. But WOW!! So many discoveries, so many interesting thoughts! :D
Especially what you said about Love(quoted above) .. i have to say..that is one of the most powerful thoughful words i've heard from you!! Are they really your own? O.o
I truly agree with you on those words..from my own experience too, i believe love is not what causes all the troubles and pain and such. It is our 'ego'. I read this in a book by Echart Tolle caleld 'The power of now'. He's amazing!

"For love to flourish, the light of your presence needs to be strong enough so that you no longer get taken over by the thinker or the pain-body and mistake them for who you are. To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment."

Excerpts from the book --
http://www.inner-growth.info/power_of_no...ter8.htm#4
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(02-06-2012 07:16 PM)nimiprem Wrote:  
(02-06-2012 03:15 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  I also learnt that love is not blind, people are; love is not confusing, we just think it is; love is not difficult to "generate", people love every day, in every way, without even knowing it; love does not trigger jealousy, our personality helps us there; love is not "slow poison", our manner of thinking is; love does not hurt, disappointments and loss does.

SEJ!!
Been a while since i dropped by. But WOW!! So many discoveries, so many interesting thoughts! :D
Especially what you said about Love(quoted above) .. i have to say..that is one of the most powerful thoughful words i've heard from you!! Are they really your own? O.o
I truly agree with you on those words..from my own experience too, i believe love is not what causes all the troubles and pain and such. It is our 'ego'. I read this in a book by Echart Tolle caleld 'The power of now'. He's amazing!

"For love to flourish, the light of your presence needs to be strong enough so that you no longer get taken over by the thinker or the pain-body and mistake them for who you are. To know yourself as the Being underneath the thinker, the stillness underneath the mental noise, the love and joy underneath the pain, is freedom, salvation, enlightenment."

Excerpts from the book --
http://www.inner-growth.info/power_of_no...ter8.htm#4

Yes!! Definitely :D

I was in a relationship a couple of years ago where I was having issues with jealousy. It was fantastic to have the chance to work out why I was feeling that way, what I was actually afraid of, and work on that - treating the underlying cause instead of just the symptoms. Ultimately, we're in charge of how we see the world, our emotions and how we react to things, and although things will definitely happen that we can't control, we can control how we perceive them. It's hard but really worth working on :)

Sejal, I also completely know where you're coming from on the introversion/extroversion thing. I still class myself as an 'introvert,' just because I need plenty of time to myself and I much prefer interacting with people in small groups - but at the same time, if I'm in the right mood, I love talking to loads of people at big parties. It's just not my natural state :P I think humans are way too complicated to be reduced to labels ;)
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Nimzi!!
Lol! Yup those are pretty much my own, but hey you what they say..., "Everything's a Remix" !! ;)
N oh, that book sounds so interesting!! You are like a sort of encyclopedia! You always have a tidbit to share.. :D
Love you lots!!!
glomp
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SQUIGGLE!!!
Its been awhile! Good luck with defeating jealousy!! Here, me hugs you....it helps!! glomp
N wow, you are an introvert too!!! I have a feeling most of the PE population are introverts or have been at some point. I wonder if there is a way to hold a survey on that.... Hmmm....
Anyway, I'm so happy you stopped by!! Thanks!! :happy:
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Reporting Day-15:
Today was just plain awesome. I mean, my mood wasn't ecstatic or anything but it was so beautiful, calm and peaceful. The day just flew by. I forgot the pressure of calls. I also stuck to my new habits. I don't think I can call them new anymore though. My Dad's b'day is on the 8th this month, I can't wait to go to his place and celebrate..... I feel so good and I really don't know why. Its seems so very easy to smile :)

Analysis:
I think I did pretty well. So, now I shall give me a big bear hug!! glomp AAARRRRRRHH!!!!

Q-15 "What is the Most Painful Thing You Have Ever Experienced To Date?"
Oh boy! Let's see if I remember...... Ok! I do remember a few incidents but I can't remember much about them. I already made peace with the people and the situation connected to those events. One had to do with my parents' separation. I remember feeling wronged and angry at first but I grew out of it. I remember another time when I really liked this on guy and he lied in a way that really hurt me. I wasted about 3 days spilling tears and coaxed myself out of it soon after.
There is one memory that still makes me cringe. Its not particularly painful, just a little scary because it was a time when I felt truly suffocated. There was a guy who used to be my friend. Things turned pretty ugly when he got all jealous and possessive. I've never felt so caged, helpless and powerless. After that ordeal, I remember actively looking out for signs of similar behavior/traits in anyone and everyone I met (like cut marks on wrists). Its been almost a year now and I have a natural repulsion to everyone who possess similar negative traits which is a good thing considering I'm no longer afraid of such people, I just have learnt to keep my distance.
Pain is something I find difficult to remember. He's no long term guest, he's more like those people that announces the arrival of someone and then goes away. I like it that way. In fact,that is how it should be! Pain can't really stand his ground when Love is around. Later....!!!

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OK!! I'll be going out of station and I won't be able to access the internet so, today's and tomorrow's results/answers will be posted on the 9th of Feb!!! I'm off to my Dad's place!!

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(02-04-2012 09:20 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  Hey Jerry!
Well, that's cool! Looks like I've got another journal buddy! :happy:
Are you keeping a journal here in PE??

I tend to lurk a lot and just watch how people progress. It is really nice, inspiring, and it makes me happy to see how others are able to improve their quality of life and document their progress. Don't be surprised if I don't actively post, but I will keep on reading!

I've been on the fence in regards of starting a journal... I know I can do it, which is not the problem, but I'm in the point where I don't find it all that necessary as it used to be. I have a small journal in which I write once or twice a month, or whenever the mood strikes. Thing is, if I were to have a journal here, I'd feel pretty bad to not update it with the frequency I'd like; I don't even document my progress on the latest challenge, even if I actually do work out and stuff, so yeah. Still thinking about it.

Back to you, though, I hope you have a great time celebrating your dad's birthday! Surely you will have a great time with him, and keep some great memories of that special day for both of you. Can say I really enjoyed your answer on "What is Love?", because I definitely agree in many points, and made me think in others too. Still, it is a marvelous feeling when you experience it, and you'll cherish it once you find the right person for you.
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Hey Jerry!
That's nice, whatever works for you is what you should stick with. You seem to be doing fine without the journal :)
I did have a nice time with my dad :).
Ah, like-minded, are we?? Good to know... :happy:
You seem to have found the right one for yourself!! Best wishes!! :)
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Time for me to catch up with the last two days.... I'm just gonna to this in bits.....

Reporting Day-16:
Day-16 was great. Tiring but great. I took the bus to my Dad's place and stopped mid-way for some b'day gift shopping. All in all it took me close to 4 hrs to get there. Needless to say, my 6-meal plan for the day was ruined but I did stick to everything else.

Analysis:
I'm not sure how to go about analyzing my last answer. Maybe I should just go over what I've learnt from these times. I've learnt that these times have made it easier for me to step in other people's shoes, helps me empathize (as opposed to sympathizing). I have learnt the importance of forgiveness, love and the ability to learn and move on. I've also noticed that these incidents have made me put up walls and shields round myself. I'll be working on taking them down. :)

Q-16 "What makes you happy?"
Whoa! Where do I begin?? There are a million things that make me happy. Stuff like the smell of wet mud, butterflies, driving through dark tunnels on sunny days, interesting guys(cute), gardening, swimming, eating yummy food etc.... But the real prize winners for me are stuff like achieving something, spending time/hanging out with similar/like-minded people, making someone else happy, watching my efforts give fruit, doing what I always wanted, pushing my limits etc. So its basically LIVING my life just the way I want that actually makes me happy. :)

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Time for the Day-17 post....

Reporting Day-17:
After I did my exercise and ate my breakfast, I realized that I had a lot of time and nothing much to do! No internet, no computer, no books to read, no paper to draw on, no paints, no where to go and I decided I wasn't gonna sit with the tv!! So, I did the housework, went out for a walk, danced to some music...., and then the lights went out. It would remain for an hour and then go out for the next hour. This kept happening about 5 times, so what did I do?? I meditated and did an hour long reiki session for myself. When my Dad finally came home, we began celebrating. I tried keeping my unhealthy hoggin' to a minimum!

Analysis:
I know now, that the previous question was meant to let me see if I was living my life in alignment with what I truly want. I think I can safely say I'm beginning to. I've taken the oh-so-important bay-steps and this can only lead me to my ideal life filled with happiness!! YAY!!! :happy:

Q17 "If the world came to an end today, how would you feel?"
Oh boy!! I'd have a hard time accepting it. My life has barely begun, it wouldn't make sense to me for the world to end so soon. After the stage of denial is out of the way, I'd look around, sad and kinda lost......, for those important to me and at the beauty of everything..., and then give love and say goodbye. Making peace with hard-to-swallow facts is my specialty. But I guess I'd still have one regret, that I haven't had a chance to raise a kid or even fall in love for that matter. Wow! I guess I'm more attached to the concept of having a family than I had initially thought. Hmmm...., wonder if 'soul-mates' exist....
Isn't this a revelation!! I guess I've finally found out how infinitely important my own private circle of love is to me... :)

Phew! Heavy stuff.... I'm gonna take a break right now before I start answering today's actual question...

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Alrightie!!

Reporting Day-18:
Yesterday's junk food messed me up! I woke with a bad tummy ache that lasted till 3.30 pm. So yea, didn't do much except sleep, puke, sleep, force myself to eat...... *Sigh!* Anyway, I recovered and came back to my Mom's place. I was so exhausted, I didn't have the energy for much. On the bright side, I have re-gained my appetite. Its amazing what a long hot shower can do.... :)

Analysis:
This certainly came as a surprise. When ever I pictured my future, I only saw accomplishments, a better me, a better life etc. Certainly no family. When I tried picturing a family, I don't know, it seemed as if I couldn't comprehend how a family could fit in my future. I guess just because I can't really visualize it, doesn't mean its not important to me. It is. Very much so.

Q18- "What matters most to you?"
Before I would have given a list of things that looked like this.

*improving the skills and talents I already have
*overcoming fear
*build myself up till I become the me I've always wanted to be
*Help others/make a difference
*live a life of learning and happiness

Sure these things are still important to me. But I think the last question pretty much opened up my eyes about this. As cheesy as this may sound, the most important thing to me is Love....; giving love, being loved! I can't believe I never knew about this until now. Looking back I do see that there has been many clues pointing to this but I guess it was easy to overlook something so subtle. Especially when you are in a world that promotes goals like "Become a successful businessman", "Earn this many dollars a month" ...., its pretty easy to forget about love; forget how essential it is, how much of it affects you and your life... Oh wow! I really need to re-think my priorities... :P

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(02-07-2012 11:01 AM)Scorpionsage Wrote:  --------------------------------------
SQUIGGLE!!!
Its been awhile! Good luck with defeating jealousy!! Here, me hugs you....it helps!! glomp
N wow, you are an introvert too!!! I have a feeling most of the PE population are introverts or have been at some point. I wonder if there is a way to hold a survey on that.... Hmmm....
Anyway, I'm so happy you stopped by!! Thanks!! :happy:
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There is one memory that still makes me cringe. Its not particularly painful, just a little scary because it was a time when I felt truly suffocated. There was a guy who used to be my friend. Things turned pretty ugly when he got all jealous and possessive. I've never felt so caged, helpless and powerless. After that ordeal, I remember actively looking out for signs of similar behavior/traits in anyone and everyone I met (like cut marks on wrists). Its been almost a year now and I have a natural repulsion to everyone who possess similar negative traits which is a good thing considering I'm no longer afraid of such people, I just have learnt to keep my distance.

It's been a difficult ride but certainly, when jealousy surfaces now (which isn't very often at all) I can see it for what it is, and deal with it :)

We should do a poll! Have you ever done a myers-briggs personality type test? Try this page if you've not heard of it :) I found it really insightful in terms of helping me to figure out why I behave the way I do, and what makes me tick. It's been pretty cool in my relationship with my boyfriend as well - he's pretty much my opposite and understanding more about our personality types has helped us to communicate and understand each other better. If you do try the test, (it's free!) it gives you loads of information on the results and it's pretty interesting. I'm an INFJ :)

I quoted that bit about the painful memory because I know exactly how you felt. I was in a similar situation and it's horrible feeling so caged and trapped. :hug: :hug: I think you have to be a bit careful with the cut marks though :S Self-harming doesn't mean that they're necessarily going to treat you badly, just that they're going through a lot of suffering in their life and it's a coping mechanism. But I'm sure you already knew that :)

I love how insightful your journalling is :) I loved the one about what makes you happy. I had a list that I used to keep updating of things that made me happy, and the smell of wet earth was definitely on there. I should really find that list and add to it.

As for soul mates, I personally think there are lots of people in the world who have the potential to be lifetime partners for a person - it's just a case of learning the skills to keep a committed relationship going :)

I'm glad you're feeling better :hug:
02-10-2012 04:04 AM
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Oooh!!! I remember doing that test a long time back... Don't remember what the result was. Thanks for the link, I'll check it out again.
And yea, I know that now. But before I couldn't really see that. In fact, back then ANY similarity to that guy used to freak me out(even the cologne). I know, its ridiculous. I guess I was pretty shaken up then but I'm good now. No judging and comparing!!
Did you know there are some shops that sell perfumes that smell like wet earth?? Its supposed to be very expensive though and its not available nearby. I also think you are right about the soul-mates bit. Well, I mean its the most logical and believable theory. But have you ever read "only love is real" by Dr. Brian Weiss??

ps. How do we do a poll??

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:love: In case anyone was wondering, that sap - erm, Jerry, belongs to me.

And I have to say I really enjoyed the last journal challenge. I have to say that I agree that the most important thing in life is happiness and love. Without happiness you cannot find love and life without love is a life that is wasted. Love is one thing you will never run out of so give as much of it to the people you care about as possible. And it will be almost impossible for anyone of good character not to love you back in some shape or form. I think a lot of people think love is just the feelings that you and your significant other or family feel for each other but I don't believe that is true. I think it is very much possible to share love with friends and even strangers in their own way. What is random acts of kindness if not small tokens of love not meant to be returned but passed along?

Moira

"If you don't make mistakes, you're not working on hard enough problems. And that's a big mistake." - F. Wikzek
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