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fufu · 10-06-2011 09:08 AM

Why you want to cultivate meditation
I want to cultivate meditation because it's something I've never tried out in my 16 year old life and as a growing girl new experiences are exciting and full of surprises. I've always wanted to try out mediation since many thoughts cross my mind all the time, sad, stressful, thoughtful, happiness, etc. so much thoughts I want to control. I also wish to gain a higher understanding with my inner self.

Time of your daily meditation
Personally I prefer early mornings: 4:00 am-4:30 am as my siblings and parents are asleep at the time. I also find this time to be the most relaxing with the morning sounds, refreshing morning smells and the sunrise. I'd also like to stick into my schedule a meditating hour before sleep. Before sleep I prefer to meditate in the bath as the running water and total loneliness for 15-30 minutes is what relaxes me each day, more if I meditate at the same time.

Duration

Since I'm a total newbie 30 minutes.

Type of meditation you are going to do
Depends on the moment, my mood, etc. For now I'd experiment all types till I find the one that most works out for me.

What you wish to get out of your 21-day meditation journey
I wish to gain a better understanding of myself and know if this habit is for me or not!

Good luck everybody.

Amanda · 10-06-2011 07:00 PM

Cheers to 16 years old life! (Even though I'm 10

)

I feel I'm like you in many ways. My real reason behind wanting to cultivate meditation is very very long, but if summarised is something like yours (even if it is not really "displayed" in my own journal).

I'm kinda envious of you being able to wake up so early though.

I usually wake up at 6am, then now it shifted to 6.30am (and I'm still in time for school). Even at 6.30am I'm still very tired.

Good luck!

~Amanda

Celes · 10-06-2011 09:27 PM

Welcome, fufu!

Great to have you here with us on 21DMC too! You were amazing during 30BBM and I can't wait to see how 21DMC turns out for you. Look forward to reading your meditation experiences!

fufu · 10-06-2011 11:04 PM

@Amanda: Hi Amanda. Nice meeting you.

Waking up at this hour wasn't easy at first and I sometimes, do, forget and continue sleeping till late even now. It's another habit I've been establishing to use as my writing/relaxing time. Out of curiosity are you really 10? O.O

Good luck to you too

@Celes: Hiya Celes!

I love your challenges and website. My life's truly changed since I found the personal excellence blog in ways I could had never imagined possible. I'm so excited to start this new challenge I can barely wait. >.<

Amanda · 10-07-2011 09:21 AM

@fufu Yup, I'm really 10

Do you need evidence (although I can't really think of any)?

ganeshmuthiah · 10-07-2011 10:38 AM

Hi fufu,

Instead of "meditate in the bath as the running water" :mrgreen:

I recall, did meditation during shower. One need to visualize nice water fall calming and cleansing the body and soul. :dance:

Looks like, this will be part of my meditation for 21DMC.Thanks for rekindling my memory.

Faiz · 10-09-2011 05:59 AM

wow fufu and amanda are just as young as me

hehe. lol! i am 27, and i am amazed that there are youngsters like fufu and amanda. looks like we got a good generation for tomorrows. fufu could you guide me on how you able to wake up as early as 4.30 am? p/s: at first i thought you were my twin brother, he also used the nickname fufu. and his wife name amanda. what a coincidence.

fufu · 10-09-2011 10:43 AM

Day 1:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?
Yes. My expectations was for 30 minutes but I only got time for 15 minutes today.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?
I'm not sure if what I did even has a name. I sat on the bath and let water run on me. Ganeshmuthiah had recommended me to imagine my soul being cleaned, I did and it did calm me. I meditated at lunch hour.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?
I think I should stick with meditating once a day instead of two. My home is a busy place and the only place I can find is sower to truly relax. I bath around night time tough sometimes earlier.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)
I learned I've got a LOT of things in my mind. As soon as I started meditating so many stressing thoughts crossed my mind. I had so many things crossing my mind, 15 minutes just flew by. I think I'd need at least a full hour. Also I have ability to connect with the spiritual world and this fact kept popping up in my thoughts. I was scared because, as I had my eyes closed, the world felt so lonely and dark. I felt in my own dimension where everything around me faded away. I wanted to remain more time but I used today as practice to understand how meditating basically felt. I have yet to decide what hour I like most.

I can't wait for tomorrow! I really loved the experience.

ganeshmuthiah · 10-09-2011 06:13 PM

(10-09-2011 10:43 AM)fufu Wrote: Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?
Yes. My expectations was for 30 minutes but I only got time for 15 minutes today.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?
I'm not sure if what I did even has a name. I sat on the bath and let water run on me. Ganeshmuthiah had recommended me to imagine my soul being cleaned, I did and it did calm me. I meditated at lunch hour.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?
I think I should stick with meditating once a day instead of two. My home is a busy place and the only place I can find is sower to truly relax. I bath around night time tough sometimes earlier.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)
I learned I've got a LOT of things in my mind. As soon as I started meditating so many stressing thoughts crossed my mind. I had so many things crossing my mind, 15 minutes just flew by. I think I'd need at least a full hour. Also I have ability to connect with the spiritual world and this fact kept popping up in my thoughts. I was scared because, as I had my eyes closed, the world felt so lonely and dark. I felt in my own dimension where everything around me faded away. I wanted to remain more time but I used today as practice to understand how meditating basically felt. I have yet to decide what hour I like most.

I can't wait for tomorrow! I really loved the experience.

hi fufu,

I agree with mediatation for quality and not for duration and frequacy.

Leah · 10-11-2011 06:43 AM

(10-07-2011 10:38 AM)ganeshmuthiah Wrote: Instead of "meditate in the bath as the running water"
I recall, did meditation during shower. One need to visualize nice water fall calming and cleansing the body and soul.

What a cool idea! I like it!

(10-09-2011 10:43 AM)fufu Wrote: I learned I've got a LOT of things in my mind. As soon as I started meditating so many stressing thoughts crossed my mind. I had so many things crossing my mind, 15 minutes just flew by. I think I'd need at least a full hour.

Hi fufu =) I'm curious to hear what do you do when the stressing thoughts come into your mind?

Texas · 10-12-2011 07:27 AM

I like that there are some of us youngsters here! I am 22 not too much older than you guys. I'm happy to see that fufu and amanda are doing this challenge. When I was that old I had no idea what meditation even was! haha Especially didn't want to try it! I wish you guys the best of luck. I hope you get the most out of this challenge!

fufu · 10-13-2011 12:23 PM

Quote: Amanda: Yup, I'm really 10 Do you need evidence (although I can't really think of any)?

Nice! I read your introduction and I'm so happy to have met somebody way younger than me on the forums

Quote:Faliz: fufu could you guide me on how you able to wake up as early as 4.30 am? p/s: at first i thought you were my twin brother, he also used the nickname fufu. and his wife name amanda. what a coincidence.

Hiya Faliz! wow the world is so tiny O.O what a huge coincidence haha. About waking up early, I don't remember where I read it but I first just went to sleep at the same hour I always did but forced myself to wake up at 4:00-4:30. I would be tired the first days and continue to sleep at the time I felt sleepy until eventually I noticed I had naturally started going to sleep early due to my lack of sleep from the past night.

Before I could stay awake till 1 or 2 am feeling none sleepy at wake up at 12-1 pm but now I start snoring around 10, sometimes even at 8 or 9. Hope I helped.

Quote:Leah: Hi fufu =) I'm curious to hear what do you do when the stressing thoughts come into your mind?

Hiya Leah! When stressing thoughts crossed my mind I would do the formula I learned in Cele's blog:

1. Allow the stressing thoughts to explore for a while, accept I am feeling down/angry/sad. Just let whatever I'm feeling out till I feel it's enough if possible. There are times I cry or feel like stopping but I restrain myself from stopping.

2. I would search what in me causes this and answer: why am I feeling this way? What's the cause? What inside of me makes me feel insecure? At this point I don't think of exact answers, I just brainstorm and am as honest as possible to myself.

3. After finding a source I'd think what I could do to change it.

Most of the times I don't do number 3 since I think meditation should be left as the time you analyze yourself to then later choose what you want to do but if I'm excited I'd add it to my schedule right after.

Quote:Texas: When I was that old I had no idea what meditation even was!

I feel the same with Amanda's age. At that age I didn't even know what personal development and less the word meditation meant. I hope many more young people such as Amanda and I join our journey in the near future.

Day 2:

Sorry about posting a day later, had lots to do yesterday.

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?
Yes. 15 minutes once again. :sweat:

The effects of me being totally new to this are noticeable.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?
Ok, my meditation today(right now yesterday :lol

went a bit bad since I fell asleep halfway. I tried meditating at night since the day time was extra busy but fell asleep, which gives me an idea of what's good and what's not.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?
Hmm I noticed thoughts about a possibility for a romance life crossed trough my mind. I wondered if I really wish to get married some day, if there would - ever - be somebody to love me for who I am. Even tough there seems to be somebody right now I seem to not be able to be with him a my mom would never agree as in her eyes I am the baby of the house who doesn't understand such things..I was resenting the fact this boy could maybe be the love of my life and yet I couldn't have him, thoughts about wanting independence, I want to live my own life, I don't even know if I even want to go to college. My parents want me to be a chef but that's not what I love...so yeah such thoughts of hate, love, anger, guilty and longing for change kept crossing.

About my meditation I realized I think better when I balance walking with staying still and listening to music but I'm not sure if I should close my eyes when I walk but if I were to close my eyes wouldn't I fall?

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)
I realized I strongly don't want my days to remain as they are, I want change in my life and in order to change and be who I want to be I must first be clear with what is it I truly want for my future and life in general.

Day 3:

Hmm I've noticed I don't have as much trouble realizing my tasks compared to the 30BBM challenge but I still procrastinate when it comes to updating my progress. From now on I'm gonna prioritize my updates.

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes. On this day, yet again, I experimented with a different meditation.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

I sat on my bed and played a meditating song that lasted 7:30 minutes. I divided my meditating into 3 distinct sections. Meditated for 22:30 minutes in total. First I meditated after lunch time, then at 6 pm and lastly before bedtime.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I noticed I can't think of stressful stuff when I meditate this way. I could only relax to the music but I could not stumble upon helpful thoughts so I think if I ever want to just relax and allow my mind to go blank this way works for me.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

I need movement in order to meditate.

fufu · 10-13-2011 08:53 PM

Day 4

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

I'm surprised I've been able to meditate, if even a lil bit, all this days O_O Still haven't got the hang of it very well but an insight I've learned is that we should all meditate in a way we personally can access our inner mind to analyze. My way is walking while listening to music.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

Today I meditated for 30 minutes. When I started walking in circles on my living room I noticed I could observe many thoughts in my mind. This is something I had done for years now but I never thought it could be considered mediating. I'm not sure what type of music I should use but on this day I did not use meditating music.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

This type of meditating makes me cry sometimes since more impacting and meaningful thoughts can cross my mind at an easy and fast pace.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

I like to meditate in the shower and walking in circles, not outside as I am too distracted afraid of the cars.

Day 5

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

I'm honestly not sure, today I was with my dad all day and we were on the car for hours, I was bored, so I thought "Hey I probably won't much time to meditate if at all as soon as we get home so why not try meditating in the car?"

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

The trip lasted for an hour but I think I only got to meditate for 20 minutes as I started half way the trip. I stared out at the scenery and observed my thoughts in silence.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

It was a great way to meditate on the world itself and an option that makes time fly fast on a trip.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

It's something I already knew but I love this world and everything in it. Looking at the cars, buildings, nature, people, animals, shops, homes, etc. feels stressing and sad as you think "So this is what we do for most of our lives? Do most people actually live such stressing lives? Walking by foot sounds way funner than this car..." Makes me appreciate the beauty life truly is.

fufu · 10-15-2011 04:12 AM

Day 6:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes, I thought I wasn't gonna have time for a moment tough.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

It was ok. As I mentioned in past posts I found walking in circles while listening to music was the most appropriate way for me to meditate so I did just this. Once again I heard to non-relaxing music but I think it works the same. I walked in the living room around 12 pm for 20 minutes.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I'm getting the hang of it. I wish I could do more meditating on the shower for next week and establish a specific hour since I have been doing them at random hours for now.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

Hmmm I might want to date the boy I'm crushing on who's also crushing on me but I'm holding myself not to as I'm scared to have my feelings hurt. I wish other thoughts could cross my mind but at the time it was the only thing I could think of. If both of us know our feelings normally we would just date but we are just that shy so I wouldn't call our relationship dating. :love:

Haaa I lie to myself saying I'm not head over heals over this boy haha. :heart:

fufu · 10-17-2011 01:34 AM

Day 7

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes, and honestly...can't believe I reached this far.. O_O

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

My meditation didn't go very well, I had this huge headache and it disturbed my thoughts in my meditation process but it felt like good practice. I meditated once again by walking in circles on my living for around 25 minutes.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I want to add some variety on the next upcoming week and dedicate my meditations at 6:00 pm on the shower and not do the walking one.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

I like variety and when repeating the same process again and again I can get bored so in the long run I think it's best to change my meditation style every now and then till I find one that I prefer to use more often.

Day 8:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes, on this day I felt sick, didn't feel like doing much, so I meditated on 3 different sessions the longest time I have to date! I'm so happy I could think of so many stuff.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

Session 1: I walked in circles for 20 minutes at 12:00 pm
Session 2: I took a warm bath for 30 minutes at 3:00 pm
Session 3: I sat on my bed for 30 minutes at 9:00 pm and fell asleep :lol:

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I lost count of all the things I observed but I feel more refreshed and prepared to deal with life this week. Made me think "I don't want to stop meditating this is awesome!"

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

I learned I need lots of meditating time in order for it to actually work for me. Just 15-20 minutes is just a warm up most of the times.

fufu · 10-18-2011 05:12 AM

Day 9:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yep I felt better but still a bit sick and meditated LOTS since I felt I had lots to process before starting out my week.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

I meditated 4 times today. Was really inspired!!!

11:30-12:00 = walking on the living room (30 minutes)
12:00-12:30 = On the shower (30 minutes)
6:00-6:20 = Walking on living room (20 minutes)
10:40-11:40 = Before Bedtime (1 hour)
Total: 2h 20 min

I'm starting to like meditating a lot. :dance:

I don't plan to meditate at so much on later occasions but sometimes I feel like I really need it so I meditate more than once.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

Hmm well I was originally planing to not walk meditate this week but I found out a pattern. I like to first walk meditate and THEN shower meditate. After that I like to write in a paper my feelings and stuff.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

:sweat:

So much stuff!! Summarized I learned I will take a step forward in my love life, my root cause to be scared of having a serious relationship, more clarity on my purpose and why I procrastinate often, what my friends mean to me, etc.

I can't wait for the next time I meditate!!! :angry:

elezhara · 10-18-2011 06:24 AM

Hi fufu!!
I can´t believe you wake up so early!! My goal is to wake up at 6, but I´m going little by little cause I used to get up at 8am. Now my waiking up time is 7am. I´m not a morning person, but now that I exercise and meditate in the morning I feel so much better.
Also love to see young people doing this challenge, I´m 18 and I didn´t know anyone my age or younger who wanted to meditate until now, so its nice to meet you

And BTW, you´re doing great!

Keep up the good work!!

fufu · 10-21-2011 08:55 AM

Day 10:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yeah. I was really exited to meditate yesterday but I found myself being busy today.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where
did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

I only meditated for 30 minutes today, walking meditation on my living room as always. It was only a few but mostly because I felt extremely sleepy all day and any other type of meditating would make me snore.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

Not really just that this walking meditation has helped me a lot.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

Being crazy and brave at times isn't as bad as I thought it would be. :mrgreen:

I tested myself and did something I normally wouldn't and while it was a bit surprising it's an experience I will never forget. From now on I will be more daring in life.

Day 11

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes. On this day I meditated and thought of many many things in my life. Too much to mention but my meditation have been very inspiring to me lately. :mrgreen:

I want to meditate because I always feel like the world is always in a hurry and it never gives itself a chance to just sit down and relax. I want to calm down and think things before I do things I don't really want to do.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

I meditated for two hours. I did the walking meditation but this time:
From my way from school: 30 minutes
Divided times at home, total: 1:30

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I'm not sure if I should be meditating so much but I like meditating for two hours at least daily.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

I'm thinking of changing my meditation to one hour morning, one hour before bedtime and maybe 30 minutes-1 hour on lunch time on the weekends.

fufu · 10-21-2011 10:00 AM

Day 12:

Were you able to complete your meditation practice today? Why/Why not?

Yes, once again was intimate. My #1 problem is my lack of privacy. I'd love to meditate in the mornings more often but my family don't sleep at the usual hour. Sometimes I wake up at 2 am to drink water quickly and see my older brother waking up and I can't force them to change this horrible habit as my mom and sister do it too...and I'm not allowed to close my door during night time as my mom finds this dangerous in case of an emergency so I barely got any privacy.

If yes, how did your meditation go? What meditation did you do? Where did you meditate? How long did you meditate for?

Yes. I was able to meditate for 3:30.
30 minutes on bath,
1:30 walking on different sections.
1:30 before sleep.

Anything you want to share about the meditation itself?

I'm slowly getting used to a pattern and enjoying this more as the days go by.

Anything you have learned for yourself today? (whether related or non-related to meditation)

Well this past days have been very emotional, in a bittersweet way, not exactly my best days ever but I've learned so many new things I'm glad I had been meditating because it helped me trough at all this.

Claire R · 10-22-2011 07:05 AM

That's great FUfu,
I also found the meditation very helpful with some hard times.So now we have another good tool to help us on our way.And it is very hard to find some quiet place and moment? Do you have a library or other quiet place where you will be left alone-or even a yard. I sometimes meditate downstairs on a bench in our building, but feel a bit funny.
Good luck and keep up the good work.
Claire R

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